Kick in the lungs/arse
A few months ago, I had one of the biggest kick in the lungs (or arse) moments I've ever experienced. Without going into much detail, I was blind sighted with something I never thought would happen by a friend who I had a lot of trust in. Not my husband, lol, but a close friend and mentor.
When someone you love and respect cuts you to your core and minimizes who you are in a matter of minutes it can be life changing... In fact, in my case that's exactly what it was - life changing.
The lesson came quickly and that was the lesson of significance. I had a huge part of my significance and identity resting in how they thought of me. I didn't need their approval, but I sure thought I did. Wow, that's so weird to admit or even say, but it's true. I was looking at them to help define me. I didn't see it then but I do now. That's another reason it hurt so much and deep because I cared too deeply about something I should not have. People are just people... We are all human, and we all have many imperfections. I do and they do.
Through a lot of prayer I realize that sometimes distancing yourself from a person or situation is the right and best way to approach healing... It's not always the easiest way though. On days like today I really miss and grieve that friendship.
God is working on me though.
Sometimes it takes hurt and kick in the lungs/arse moments to remind us how much we truly need Him and His direction. I'm going to keep trusting and learning. I have to continually remind myself that my significance completely rests in Him - and Him alone.